Monday, January 31, 2011

Random thoughts on a monday!

Miscellany Monday @ lowercase letters
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Monday Miscellany

1. Apparently we are going to get the snow storm of the last 50 years. Unfortunately I have been watching FRIENDS on dvd and completely missed that news. So today I panicked momentarily about not having bottled water and such prepared- and that my hubby works so far away (yes I know it is only 30 minutes but lately I have been wanting to gather those close to me, I think it is a pregnancy thing. I just want everyone nearby, safe & sound) Good thing I memorized those verses in Matthew- see it works- the storm is suppose to hit tomorrow and Jesus instructs me NOT TO WORRY ABOUT TOMORROW BECAUSE TOMORROW WILL WORRY ABOUT ITSELF.

2. We are having a healthy baby girl. I know I mentioned this in that horribly annoying PINK post a couple days ago, but I just wanted to say EEEEEEEEEEEEEkkkk! I am still so excited and thankful

3. I would like to learn how to accessorize better. I read a friends post and she described wearing a shirt with an armful of bangles. Sounds exciting huh? (I don’t think this fits into the DO NOT WORRY ABOUT CLOTHING piece from my memory passage this week….I’m not worried, just thinking) My only consistent accessories are my wedding rings and the rubber band that may or may not be on my wrist

4. I went to Qdoba with some friends when I was in Colorado and ever since I have been craving this “mexican gumbo they have” It is basically their chicken tortilla soup poured over rice and black beans. And WOW is it good. Too bad we don’t have any Qdobas in KC. Dan and I went to on the border just to get chicken tortilla soup the other day. It was good and settled the craving, but wasn’t quite the same. At least it still had rice, but no beans =(

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Baby blog 18 weeks

Week 18 Baby Blog

* it’s a Girl! *

How far along am I today? 18 weeks 1 day

What is the favorite thing you ate today? White bean Chicken Chili and Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough *I WAS MAKING COOKIES, NOT JUST EATING A ROLL OF DOUGH!

How’s the food stuff coming along? Cravings? Aversions? I really have been wanting a chocolate chip cookie. Therefore, today I made chocolate chip cookies. No new aversions.

Any new symptoms this past week? I have been gagging all the time. I mean it is RIDICULOUS! If I smell something bad, if I think of something gross, if I talk on the phone too long! SERIOUSLY! It is so annoying!

What about the exercise routine? Walking and working out with my trainer once a week. Yesterday’s training session was HARD!

Sleep…is it good/bad/mediocre? Pretty good.

How big is the baby, any major milestones for baby? Baby is about the size of a sweet potato. Around 5 ½ inches and 6.5 ounces. Head circumference measured at 13 centimeters at our sonogram! She moves a lot!

How about the baby’s activity? She moves so much, but I am not feeling anything yet. I have an anterior placenta so my midwife said it may be a bit before I feel movement.

Did anything special (besides the baby growing!) happen this week? We had our sonogram and found out that we are having a girl! We are SOOOO excited. She is healthy and beautiful! After our sonogram I went shopping with my mom and got some super cute stuff for our little gal. We also bought a new crib- ours was pretty much a death trap, so we took advantage of Babies R Us’s trade in event and got a great deal on a nice crib.

Here are some adorable shoes My mom and I got on our little shopping trip. Seriously! get cuter!

And here is my 18 week picture. I am showing, but my belly is just so low you really only can tell I am pregnant when I wear sweatpants/workout pants. My jeans hide it and so do my scrubs. I am definitely growing though. A couple more weeks and I bet I pop!

Friday, January 28, 2011

So I am starting to feel like waiting to get an actual pregnancy bump/belly (one that actually would make a person think “hum, I wonder if she is pregnant” instead of “did she eat a chipotle burrito for lunch or drink to many beers last weekend” ) is kinda sorta similar to puberty and waiting to get boobs!
I had to wait most of my adolescence to get “acceptable” sized breasts. (WOW AM I REALLY TALKING ABOUT BOOBS ON MY BLOG?) Now that I am pregnant I have “big to me” boobs and I’m just waiting for the belly. Ha- still a bit funny to be talking about boobs.
Well how about a new subject?
Today we get to have a sonogram! Yippee! I am so excited to get to see our little guy/girl again and to find out (hopefully) if it is a boy or a girl! (I am pretty much willing to stand on my head in tripod position to get that baby to spread its legs!) Most importantly we are eager to see how baby is progressing and to know that he/she is healthy.
I have been memorizing Matthew 6 vs 25-34 this last week. It has come in handy a lot when thinking about the sonogram. I am very bad at letting my worries get the best of me and having scripture to combat is great. Along with wonderful friends and family that keep me cool, calm and collected.
So Here it is straight from my memory so please don’t judge the wrong words/phrases- hope it encourages you too.

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life what you will eat or drink or about your body what you will wear. Is life not more important that food and the body more important that clothing? Look at the birds of the air. They neither sow nor reap or store away in barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them” Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Look at the Lillies of the field, see how they grow. They do not toil or spin yet I tell you not even Solomon in all of his glory was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, here today and tomorrow thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you- you of little faith.
(That’s all I have so far- here is the end that I am still working on)
So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
love, LA

Monday, January 17, 2011

You're beautiful

You’re beautiful, made for so much more than all of this. You’re beautiful, you are treasured, you are sacred, you are His.

I’ve been thinking a lot about self image and body image of women. Especially those LOVELY women I hold so dearly. Out of 10 friends that I would consider to know well and have known the longest I would say 7 of us have pretty extreme body image issues. Some have gotten better over the years, some of us still struggle, for some of us it is just simply self-loathing and lack of ability to see ourselves how God sees us. And for others it is a harsh examination of every particle of food we stick in our mouths followed with guilt and more self-loathing from just feeding our bodies.

Where does this come from? Media? How our Mothers viewed themselves? Lies that we have allowed others to speak over us?

I can honestly say that just the other day being almost 16weeks pregnant I had the thought that for the first time maybe ever- I am very happy with how my body looks. (I say this meaning that for the first time while I have been healthy- I remember once years ago loving my body, but I was working out WAY to much and hardly eating) Yes my thighs are maybe flabbier than they were 4 months ago, my abdomen is starting to protrude, I am still short, I’m not a teeny tiny petite little thing, but I am a woman, being healthy, growing a human being.

It was very hard in those early weeks of pregnancy when my body was changing, but all that was happening is my pants were tight and I had an impressive little muffin top. There were a few times that I let my “self hatred” get out of hand and the look on my sweet husbands face when I would go off on my self was so sad. You see, he sees me for how I really am. He sees not only my physical beauty but my inner beauty. I truly am lucky to have a man like him to tell me everyday how beautiful I am.

So I guess what I am saying in all of this is WHY. I want to encourage us all to take a good look at ourselves. To spend some time in the Word looking at what God says about us. To embrace a healthy lifestyle, eating healthy foods, having a healthy exercise routine. To be honest and open about our bodies and where we truly are and what issues we have. As daughters of the King we have a responsibility to ourselves, to our daughters, and to our sisters & friends to stop this cycle of self hate and to encourage one another to be healthy and view ourselves and each other as God sees us.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

baby blog

How far along am I today? 16 weeks 1 day
What is the favorite thing you ate today? A very lovely bowl of frosted flakes
How’s the food stuff coming along? Cravings? Aversions? The thought of BBQ still can make me gag, and oranges still are tasty.
Any new symptoms this past week? I have had a huge aversion to smells this week! Several times at work I have gagged at some smell that normally I could handle no problem.
What about the exercise routine? Again- I need to do better
Sleep…is it good/bad/mediocre? Good sleep this week
How big is the baby, any major milestones for baby? Baby is about the size of an avacado!
How about the baby’s activity? Still not feeling any movement! I am so excited for this to happen. All in good time I suppose
Did anything special (besides the baby growing!) happen this week? We had a surprise birthday party for Dan! It was a whole lot of fun. (I will be in colorado next weekend so I will miss his real birthday) I also starting reading "Husband Coached Child Birth" very good so far. I am also thinking about changing midwives- I have a meeting with Kathy Gordon (a midwife I went to Africa with in 2008) on tuesday to talk with her about having her deliver me. She is delivering in the hospital for a time between birthing centers- she is building a second birthing center in KC and had a huge hand (maybe even started) the one that is here. I loved her when we were in Africa and I think she will fit my personality and "desires" for how I hope birth day will go better than the midwife I see now. (Although I do like the midwife I see now) Also- We find out in 2 fridays what "type" of baby we are having! =)
No pic this week. Sorry folks.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Fear Monster

Sometimes this creepy little monster called FEAR tip-toes it's way into my life, takes it's nasty little fingers and crawls up my back until its slimy little buttox is sitting smack dab on my shoulder.

I work in an industry where I see EVERYTHING. Often the kiddos have all sorts of problems. As we rapidly approach 18 weeks and our next sonogram I feel FEAR creeping up on me. I think most people are just excited to hear if they are having a boy or a girl... but not me, I am afraid. Afraid of there not being 4 chambers of the heart, 2 functioning kidneys, intact spine and brain, correct sex organs, full gastric organs that are INSIDE the body. Afraid my uterus will still be mis-shaped making pre-term labor likely. Then my mind wanders into those things. Lung development, eyesight, brain function....

1 John 4

16 And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.

God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. 17 This is how love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus. 18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.


Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Miscellany Monday

Okay,Okay it is now Tuesday. But it is the wee hours of the morning tuesday and I still haven't gone to bed from monday so to me it is till monday (until I sleep)

1. I bought my husbands birthday present. I am so excited about it. I know it is something he wants but will not guess and that he will be excited! YIPPEE...I love surprising people...just don't like surprises.

2. I am a nurse and one of my biggest pet peeves in nursing is central line infections. It really just makes me angry. How hard is it to use good technique and SCRUB THOSE HUBS....seriously is so disappointing when a kiddo gets an infection- it just completely derails & delays their care.

3. Snow...snow is completely over rated in my book. Yes it is fun to play in for a limited amount of time-I agree there is nothing better than going down suicide hill in a black trash bag. However, it is both wet & cold- two things I hate to be, and it gets all dirty and leaves everything in its path all mushy and soppy and such.

4. My dog pees on the deck when it snows. I am not sure why. She never does this normally. But in snow it always happens. Then she will go into the yard to play. I think in snow since everything is COVERED in white she has no concept of the difference between the deck and the yard.

5. That's all I've got for today.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

15 weeks


How far along am I today? 15 weeks

What is the favorite thing you ate today? Sheridan’s Frozen Vanilla Custard with hot fudge and bananas! YUM

How’s the food stuff coming along? Cravings? Aversions? Still loving the Citrus foods. I ate my first pregnancy sushi-cooked of course. It was pretty good. Not as good as my pre-prego favs.

Any new symptoms this past week? My pre-prego jeans don’t button =( But…I am loving my bella band! I have had a cold–ish thingy since christmas and it hasn’t gotten better. Man is it hard to get better and grow a little human!

What about the exercise routine? I could have done better with working out, I am still trying to figure out a good workout system. I gave up my gym membership since we moved and its been too cold to walk outside. I need to invest in a good workout DVD I think.

Sleep…is it good/bad/mediocre? Good, besides getting up to pee frequently.

How big is the baby, any major milestones for baby? Baby is about 4.5-5 inches and about the size of a softball.

How about the baby’s activity? Baby is moving, and hopefully I will be able to feel it soon! We read in our pregnancy book that baby may even be sucking his/her thumb! Cute huh?

Did anything special (besides the baby growing!) happen to me this week? It was a pretty uneventful week actually.Sorry to be lame, but I’ve got nothing.

15 week photo. My belly looks a little pointy but that is because the button on my pants doesn't button anymore and although I love the bella band it doesn't make things perfectly smooth.

Emotions and Mira

Before I begin this little post, lets be kind and remember that I am pregnant and normally a somewhat emotionally stable person!

We have a lovely dog- her name is Mira. She is super sweet but very neurotic and kinda crazy. I often wonder if she has some sort of head injury- due to her completely unpredictable and psycho behavior. Some days she will wake up and be a "normal" pooch...other days- she is skiddish, looks around the room like something is going to get her, and hides.
Well yesterday afternoon when I woke up (I worked the night before so got up around 4:30pm) she had takenamajor dose of the crazy pill. When I got up I tried to let her outside. She ran away and hid in her bed. So I figured "oh well she will let me know when she has to potty" (keep in mind at this point she hasn't pee'd since around 8am when I got off of work and let her out). I tried again around 5, before I showered at 530 and then finally before I left around 6. She REFUSED to go to the bathroom. She would run away when I went to the back door, finally I picked her up to take her out, then she would sit by the back door never actually getting off the deck, head lifted, refusing to look at me(I was standing in the yard like and idiot trying to coax her out).
So finally a little frustrated I give up. When I go to leave for work she tries to follow me out the front door. So I figure maybe I should try the front yard. I get the leash, she follows me out, and as soon as we get in the yard she puts her tail between her legs and begins to pull as hard as she can to go back inside, again never looking at me- her neck is extended head pointing up and she is literally turning herface away from me. AHH!!! So I begin to try and talk calmly to her, tell her its okay, get on her level. Nothing works. Finally defeated I take her back inside. I get all my stuff again, and she tries to go back out the door with me! MAKE UP YOUR MIND MUTT...ARE YOU SCARED OF THE OUTSIDE? OR THE INSIDE?
At this point I am MAD! I feel that I have failed as a "mom" because I can't get my pooch to use the potty and I hate knowing she is afraid- and I am mad that she is so crazy psycho & afraid and has been since she was a pup.
So I cry- I cried all theway to work. I cried to my husbands voicemail (He then responded with a super sweet message on my phone reassuring me she is fine, and he would get her to potty and to breath essentially) then I cried to my mom who tried to give me suggestions (by the way mom, we did move her kennel to the family room). Basically I cried over NOTHING! NOTHING!
Now there is the pot calling the kettle black huh? Here I am this huge emotional mess because of NOTHING(besides the ever growning being taking up residence in my abdomen)...and I am mad at a dog who is seemingly scared of nothing. I guess the jokes on me- at least I could laugh about it right?!?
Too bad I had to show up to work looking like someone had beat my face with a wet rag. Then explain to people why I had obviously been crying. Oh well- they all thought it was funny.
Here are a few pics of mira- she was seriously crazy from the start
This is our sweet girl on the car ride home...hiding her face in the door cup holder. *YEP SHE'S SPECIAL
When she was really young she used to get all her toys, pillow and even bowl together and drag them under the table and hide out there. But isn't she CUTE!!!
This is Mira's classic "LOOK AWAY" pose. She is afraid of the noise a camera makes, so she refuses to look at it. Yes, she was dressed up as a chicken. It was a fitting halloween costume.
Can anyone find Mira?
Thanks for the Rant...
love, LA

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

What I know for sure

Today is one of those days in which I am kinda down about the state of the world. Where- I get ever so pissed at EVE for eating the fruit off that damn tree and at Adam for going along with it when he knew better.

Here is what I know for sure- Jesus is the redeemer of all things and soon he will come and make this hurting, breaking, mess of a world whole again. Until then I simply ask why and pray.

Why Are Matt and Molly going through and loosing (lost really) this horrible custody battle for their daughter Waverly?

Why are Brice and Katie having to deal with the fact that their daughter will likely not make it out of the womb living?

Why are Dave and Cassie having to face multiple surgeries for their premature baby boy and a long road of future issues for such a young life?

Father these are your children- These people love and serve you and they are breaking, crumbling, and yet praising your name more than ever before. Bind up their broken hearts, give them joy instead of mourning.

love, LA

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

My feet get cold in the winter

Occasionally my toes just can't contain themselves...and they sneak up on my poor poor husband's bare skin. This is precisely what is about to happen here.
You know what I am talking about? When your toes get nice and chilly and and they cannot help but say hello to your mans unsuspecting warm skin?
He will likely hollar something like "get some socks", or "geez woman", or "Nooooooo" in a semi whiney voice. And somehow I just find this hilarious. Bahahaha...(I know I am evil or something)
Tonight though was different. He outsmarted my evil little freezing cold piggies. He tucked his shirt into his boxers so I could not slide my freezing cold toes up his back.

Dan-1 Piggies-0

Just wait till bed. =)
-love LA

Monday, January 3, 2011

Micellany of Monday

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Miscellany Monday @ lowercase letters

So in an effort to blog more frequently I grabbed this idea from a friends blog.

1. As posted in my last "baby blog" I now have a certifed citrus obsession. I have eaten my way though half a case of "cuties" in 2 days, had more OJ than is probably healthy and have had a true tinkering for Key Lime Yogurt. Yummm Citrus!

2. My husband and I made a deal that if he would read the first Harry Potter book (He calls it Harry Potsmoker but I LOVE the books and believe he will too) then I would read the first book in Clive Cusslers "Dirk Pitt" series. I think he got the better in of the bargan...but I am only one chaper in so I will let you know.

3. Speaking of Citrus- My BFF got me this Pink Grapefruit Sorbet body butter from Sephora for Christmas. It is the best stuff in the world and smells so great! (Odd that I find the citrus smell delish huh?!?) My hands are now ALWAYS nice and silky. Thanks Em!

4. I got to eat lunch with a good friend today. She is a breath of fresh air and it truly made my day to just fellowship with her for the afternoon. Lucky me- I get to spend a whole six days with her in a few weeks!

Not to bad for my first attempt at a random monday?

Love LA

Saturday, January 1, 2011

2010 a year in review

HAPPY 2011!
I am truly not one for resolutions or reflection of entire years- HOWEVER! Due to my increased hormones I am feeling especially sentimental about 2010 and I have come up with some very good resolutions that I think are do-able and necessary for my life.
So firstly for resolutions
1st- I want to enjoy the stage/time of life I am in. Early on my pregnancy I realized I was always saying " I am almost X amount of weeks" instead of just saying I am X number of weeks. Why was I doing that? After a bit of reflection I realized I always am rushing to the next thing in my life. All my life I have anticipated the future, graduation from highschool, college, getting married, having babies, Pretty soon I will be 95 years old and looking forward to heaven and thing " I should have savored my life!" Looking forward is great, but sometimes I miss the present because I am planning the future.
2nd- I will not micromanage my husband. I am married to the most wonderful man, that I have faith in and is completely capable of doing things by himself his way... Our minds work so drastically different and being the type A person I am I tend to think my way is best- whether that is when hanging pictures, driving to our destination in the car, or any number of other activities. I want to be an encouragement and respectful to him and by micromanaging our projects I do the opposite of that.

Here are a few pictures that show My favorite events this year- they are not in any order just things that stood out to me this year that I particularly enjoyed.

This Year Dan and and I both got baptized. Our church has an annual baptism and neither of us had been baptized as an adult. It was a wonderful celebration with friends and family

We found out at the End of October that we will be adding a child to our family in early July. We are super excited and can't wait to meet out little one.

My wonderful husband Graduated from KU's school of business and got a really great job at Farmers Insurance. I was so proud of him graduating- it definitely gets harder the older you get and he sacrificed a lot to finish up.

Dan and I got a chance to get out of town and visit Memphis Tennessee this fall. We had a ton of fun just being together, seeing all the history, listening to some great music and of course seeing Graceland! We also stopped at a B&B in Hermann Mo's wine country on the way to memphis and Laura Ingalls Wilder's Childhood home in Mansfield, Mo on the way home (I may have been a bit obsessed with the Little House books when I was little...I may have worn a prairie dress and bonnet to school in third grade! bahahaha!)

My favorite Southerner came to visit. She is a breath of fresh air and I was so greatful to get to have her here and get to spend some time with her.

Our First Anniversary was in June and we had a wonderful dinner at the melting pot- Dan very carefully timed all his meat in the fondu pot which I thought was super ammusing and we ate way to much. Later the next day we "recreated" our wedding cake top...we may have eaten it after the wedding cause neither of us got a slice of cake.

I created a (very) small business this year. Sasa Blue is a Play on my names and has a line of things from baby products to headbands and clips. It has been fun getting to have a place to create and fun to make a little extra cash. I did a craft/art fair in August. It was very fun to decorate a booth and do some business

So those are my favs of 2010.

14 weeks

Happy New Year! I do have a new years post that I will probably post later today, and I may take a pic for this post, but no promises!
Here is my 14 week baby blog.

How far along am I today? 14 weeks
What is the favorite thing you ate today? This super yummy Mexican Taco Corn Cheese dip stuff that my co-worker made! Thanks Jen!
How’s the food stuff coming along? Cravings? Aversions? No aversions, and no serious cravings, although oranges always sound delish and I have eaten multiple oranges or other citrus fruits this week.
Any new symptoms this past week? Unfortunately yes- Two things. I have had a cough and have to be careful to frequently empty my bladder, or else if I cough suddenly I may whiz my pants just a wee bit- YEP I just admitted to piddling my pants on my blog. Also- When I cough I feel like someone is pulling on my belly button from the inside. It’s a very odd feeling.
What about the exercise routine? I went on a long brisk walk one of the days we had nice weather and I looked into joining a gym in the area. A friend also recommended a DVD so I think I will check that out. My goal for week 14 is to exercise an acceptable amount.
Sleep…is it good/bad/mediocre? Sleep was good this week.
How big is the baby, any major milestones for baby? Baby is about the size of my clinched fist. Baby’s bones are starting to harden and baby can now move his/her facial muscles! Baby can practice breathing and pee!
How about the baby’s activity? I’m sure he/she is active, but I haven’t felt it yet
Did anything special (besides the baby growing!) happen to me this week? Happy New Years! Baby will be born this year!